It’s been more than a year since my last post. So many things have happened since and so little time to document it all. My son is now running around, I’ve left my job of 5 years, old friend found and a new job in the works.
I’m beginning to dread meeting old friends. Everyone are moving on to new things, new promotions and progressing to a new stage of their lives whereas I seem to be sliding backwards. I am starting to feel out of touch. Perhaps this is what most SAHM feel at some point.
The pro of staying at home is being able to witness my son’s milestones: taking his first steps, eating his first solids and being there whenever he cries. The con is losing touch with the world I used to know. Don’t get me wrong. I don’t regret the decisions I’ve made. I just wished I can have have the whole cake and wolfed it down heartily.
I’m not keen to pass my child to the hands of strangers in a few more months. I’ll be jealous if they get to see more of my son’s firsts. In order for me to move on, tough decisions must be made. I don’t like it but it must be done.
Let’s hope it’ll be worth it. This is a new year of new changes. Help me stay positive!